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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 01:07

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I was scared of men, in general

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

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And i lived it daily.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Im still living with it.

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

She loved him until the end.

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I just cannot wake up early, even if I sleep on time. What should I do?

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

We all went to grammer schools

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Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She married twice! .

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I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

I don,t even have a pension.

Why did i forgive my father ?

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I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

This is soul school!.

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She was in good health!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

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Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

What did i know ?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I waited trembling.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Was to survive, this bastard.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

It was going to be , some day.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I never cut or harmed myself..

Especially a lifetime of it.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

As i do to all so called friends.?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was 9 years of age.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

My life is so biszare .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I was seconnd youngest,

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Comes on , in middle age.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

All the time i was locked up.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

But ive been too sick for many years..

I write beautiful poetry .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Who then, do I blame.?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I think the readers, may guess!

Put me off passion for life!!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I will be 64.

We were not on the streets..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

When she asked me how she looked .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

So, i spoilt her more .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

But, we were locked up after school.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Would this be the day?

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But it wasn’t much.

My family never makes their pension either.

I was very sick at this time too.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I have no regrets .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She found it foreign!.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I said to her

He knew the spot.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One cannot live in the past .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Ive learnt so much.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I couldn’t, believe it.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She wouldn,t have been !

So whats the point in blame.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.